short pleasures are often long regretted

Six months on Wednesday is hard to believe!

To recap: It took him 2 weeks to seduce me into butt sex, one month before he said the "L" word (coincidence?), two months for me to move in, three and a half months after our first date we posted an ad on craigslist for a threeway, and four and a half months later put up a profile on a dating website for swingers. (Soft only.)

And I thought match.com was a train wreck. My perception of "the lifestyle" has been mostly confirmed, unpleasantly. I am picky to begin with. It was hard enought to find ONE guy to be attracted to, now I have to worry about a male AND a female? It's difficult to find a four way dynamic with random couples. (Especially when the guys are just riding in on a hotwife's coattails 90% of the time.) We've met a couple of cool couples, but generally they have been duds. A LOT of women we both liked, but couldn't get around an ugly/boring/unwilling spouse.

One thing I have noticed is the sense of entitlement - as if everyone has to hop into bed together simply because the requisite working parts are present. I didn't fall into bed with just anyone when I was single, I surely am not going to start now. (Especially considering what I already have at home.) Thank God we agreed on the front end there is no "taking one for the team." Women only....he still gets to fuck them, so there will be no hard feelings I'm sure. That's hot.